THAT settles it;
it is a ROYAL WASTE of time...abt anything *** related!
i passed by, i tried..... now *** IS OUT for blood......
man....i dig! TOTALLY. i CONCEDE...defeat.






just a note to ****************
some pple have it bad....a wrong friend concept....
wrong prioities
wrong mindset....
some things once destroyed will never be mended.....
i dun want ur excuses.....they r worse than lies...cos EXCUSES ARE LIES GUARDED.
snap back to reality. he DONT love u....n NEVER will....(not again, not ever...) HARSH as this is..it is the truth..DAMMIT__ wake up!






it's been crazy.....emotion runnin at full blast.....frustration building up////.....tension is settin in....DAMMIT! wat have i gotten myself into?
anyhow......it was great workin wih dawnie!!!!seriously, andrew....pls smarten urself up...u r like a person wif pants on fire!!! whew!!!*ditch the plastic!!!!!*
jeanie....i m not tryin to be "blog" polite or friendly......thanks for being there for me when i was goin thru a rough patch... i really dig it n appreaciated it!!!thks for being frank n tellin me the naked and bare truths....it made me see things alot clearer....n opened another world of possibilities...:) high time...we hit a gastronomical*? outin!!!:) love ya room.....a witchy magical touch!
yi*n..u lucky lucky gal!!!! hope u have a great time...beneath the aussie sky....oh man....and enjoyin those HUGE servings of food!!!!argh@@@@@@@ u LUCKY chit!!!!! darn! darn! darn!!!
nic....thks for defendng me...like i said..sorry for gettin ya messed up n embroiled into this tacky n sticky situation....:(
but i reallyappreciate it! thks for being a buddy, dude!
jilly....i mean..jillian....i dun noe wat to say to ya....the misunderstanding is sinking deeper n the knots are gettin worse....
i m aware that any mistake on any parties part will destroy what is left. i m being extremely cautious...n wary...i m hopin against hope that u will hit e bac with the truth....i dun need everthing to be sugar coated n wrapped up....i just need ur sincerity.... i m angry at andrew not necause u r occupied with him...shoot....why wld i? i understand the emotion of galfriend....it's just that he is not treatin u the way u deserved to be treated....and wat' worse? u r siding him?!
i hate seein ya upset n teary over him....just on this, he is a JERK!!! how cld he make a girl...his girl even cry? n he is comin out with excuses to defend himself!
on the other hand, u r not tellin me things the way they really are....no matter how bad or dreadful, u gotta spit it out.
mebe its high time we cooled off n talk things out..i wa abt to give ya a ring....when ur bro's "sweet" lil tag hit me straight in the face! tell me....how am i sppose to react? i am clueless.if anything, he managed to make things worse.....a lot worse.

things r not goin the way i wished them to be....but i m glad to have you guys by my side...amusing me...hangin with me..n most importantly, thks for being true--- jeanie, y*in, nic, dawn,jacob,chrissie.....u guys rock on!

peace out









Gosh....it's been an AWFULLY looooooooooooong time since i last blogged.....Man...time really flies...the "hols" are gone....
F**ck, where did all the time go?>
over this span of time, lots of crazy stuff took place:)
alrite...this is gonna be a CONDENSED VERSION of what really took place.....
jean, nic, emmanuel and my couz, Dawn had a smashing time over my place for a game of mahjong n "Harry Potter" uno game!!!
jeanie.....u won most of the rounds in mahjong!!!!GRR.....must be the lucky purple hippo!!!! i m gonna charge ya a fee next time!!!!!(u took all my luck!!!)*pouts*
dat emmanuel....is such an UNFAIR person....wassup wif ya always pickin on me?!i swear...u r doin it on purpose!!!!!:(
btw, i m gonna get bac at all ya!!!! i did not even win a SINGLE game of mahjong!!!! *drats!!!! DAT WHOLE GAME IS
RIGGED!!!!!*
i couldn't be THAT bad....rite?!----winces----
wow!!!! i got a job!!!!! YAY!!! x2 cheers!!! finally, i m working......with my dear cousin too!!!

-----saturday-----

it WAS gonna be a really swell and enjoyable outing......but in the end, a certain HER screwed everythin up for me....a really huge "THANKS" to HER!

anyhow....met up with jeanie gal and had a chat over a glass of refreshing drink at Pacific Coffee.....yummy!!! dawn came a lil while later....and we had a fabulous time laughin n "bitchin" :)

*GASP* my gawd!!!! EMMANUEL was ON TIME!!!!---rub my eyes----- amazing!!!!>grinz<
dear therese!!!!! happy b day!!! *nudge...nudge...*somebody is 19! hmmmmm.......may all ya wishes come true!!!(winks)
:)

y*in.....it's been a while since we met up!!!! lookin good!!!! and mr snoopy...oops!!!! i mean tristan....:P has a great time*bickering* with ya!!! thank for all ya jokes.....(reluctant like i am), i gotta admit....."y*in...now i knowwhy u fell for him.......DAT LUCKY GUY!

dawn/....u r the greatest sport...hittin off with my frenzs!!!u r a gem!!!! btw, my frenzs enjoy ya company!!!!:)
jeanie..thanks a lot for warmin up to my cousin!!!! i appreciate it!!!:)

nic and emmanuel.....thanks for cracking all of us up with DA biggest joke ever.....*suppressed laughter*...u guys actually look cute in those matching suits....awwwwwww...(chokes):P

nydc.....omigosh!!!!the food rocks!!!it was an excellent chill out with ya guys!!! absolutely fantastic!!!

i m really sorry if i was kinda upset that nite....sorry if i dampened ur spirits.....but...i must day...being with u guys LIFTED MY SPIRITS n cheer me up! a big thnks n hugz!!!

we shld do this again!!!

p/s: emmanuel....one prob with ya brownie....NOT ENOUGH CHOCOLATE CHIPS!!!!*grinz*

love all; tiffy