it rained today. on a dreary tuesday.
i feel bad for tuesday. after monday's blues...before the mid week of wed..
tuesdays come and go...like a ghost without grudge.
have u ever lay down at nite...and counted sheeps...till u get bored?
have u ever listened to the tunes of the mp3 till the battery ran out?
have u ever needed sth so bad that u cant sleep at nite?
have u ever give someone up becos you are scared?

have u ever search for words...and realise that u dun knw wat to say?

i had. and then the cowardice rise. becos u dun wanna break down.

so many friends. so much opportunities. so little in our world.
i look around and see circumstances. all that maybes, ifs and buts.
we sit and stand. we pace and we stride. we boosted and slumped.

all the masks. the pretense. cant live real with it. cant live at all without it.

have u ever...





Lunch Today. my mom made it. it feels real good to be home.
it does. the familiarity.the dependence.

been shoppin juz a lil too much.
bought the cutest sets today.the mug..the bowl..the plate...all princess and frog prince.
and the lil baby disney table settings....and the pink dinosaur *snap snap* toothbrush holder.
awwww.......*put it on the card*
did i tell u i am still addicted to the credit card? the sophistication of flickin a card...and
*charge it.
my my..after so many rounds...i still love the thrill. ha ha..until...the bills come.
awww shitttt..

i miss him. but why? how am i supposed to react?





been in singapore for a while...
gettin used to the heat and the marvellous food!
oooohh...i love spore sooo..and i love the food..and the discounts.. wahey!
so much thoughts and ramblings that i wanna pen down...but do i really wanna stripped my soul barred over an electronic post?
hmmm..there are pple i need to email...letters i hve to write...parcels to send.
so many relationships ard me toppled....this is saddening...
they were goin strong one day...and the next...all blown away...with bits of memories trailing...
why? and i thot we are supposed to fall in love ...and stay in love...is it possible to fall out of love?
shit happens. and some cowards will remain cowards. no. he(s) do not deserves u. he deserves jack. nada. ceased to exist.
i told her..move out of the shadows...*how conceited of me.
i look ard and saw the shadows of past...though faint..but still lingers.....

wat rite do i have? i shake my head. i gritted me teeth.it angers me to see u happy.
how can u enjoy the change in him? the change i caused in him? bitch. why do u recycle?
get your own darn project!

and then the prince walked into my life...swatted away those dark clouds.
i am selfish this time round. Once bitten, twice shy rite?
i only gave him 20% of my heart....and he gave almost his all.
something he said stirred my heart...
'u will never love me as much as i love u. Never.'

now. i *heart* him more than i love anyone else. but shhhh he does not need to knw.
not now at least. keep it mean. keep them keen.